She just wanna go somewhere. Some place where she could lay her head, out of everything that have happens to her.


"Mother...... what did I've done wrong?", she said

Her mother just stood still, looking trough her daughter eyes, her pretty little 14 years old daughter, and then she answered,


"You did nothing wrong..... you just done a stupid thing, that's all,"

her daughter already filled with tears, her eyes were red and her face looks like 8 years younger.

"I've done everything for him, Mother.. everything he wanted me to do, I do it for him, to shown how much I love him, and this is what I got? The world is so unfair, Mother!",

she screamed.


Screw.

It is the only feeling that she felt that moment. Between her dreams and her realities, her mind was filled with sadness. She has lost between so many things, she has lose everything she thought she had. Crying is the only thing she knows, and die-trying is the only thing that she think could help her.


"Mother..... it has been 2 years more that I've been so in love with him... He's the first guy that I introduce you as my boyfriend. And above all things, he is the one who controlled my life for the past 2 years.."


her mother just laugh, and said,


"What do you want him to do? Get back to you? Honey... for God sake, I've been there before. And getting back with a jerk like him is not the only way. Think what you will look like when you're back with him.... You wanna be seen as a dumbass bitch who's easy to break up and easy to get back again? No, right?",



Mother.

"My only helper," she thought. After all this years, after hating and loving her so much, she only cry when her mother told her that. Being so unpredictable, mother has came along to help her getting through her problems. Mother, a single word that has so many meanings. She really love nor hate this moment.




Feeling so stupid, she only cries for days.... Not sleeping, not eating. Cry is the only thing that she could do. Getting through each day was so hard for her. Untill now, she still feels the same way back then. Back before these problems were coming. This is the biggest regret that she made. Feeling stupid, foolish, and not lucky, are the only feelings that she felt.




A smile. It is a curve that can set things straight.





After all, this is the life where she should hold on to. And regrets will be as it will be.

, Echa.